我想你。
那个时候我就记得对你的感觉了。真的不要你离开我。
怎么了？
I am:
- Not the age I look, apparently.
- An anthropology student.
- An abortion baby.
- A dancer.
- In love with clothes.
- An aspirer with lots of dreams to fulfill.
Je pense que ma vie est un peu interessant.
I’ve been thinking
about a lot of people in my life recently. So I felt like posting something like this.
I. I really don’t like you. I’ve never really met a person in my life that I disliked this much. I don’t know how you did it, but you’ve managed to squirm past my every nerve and I really just cannot stand you. It’s not even one of those jealous I-hate-you-because-of-some-desirable-trait feelings. It’s just that I fucking don’t like you. I kind of want to die when I see you or you come near me. I cringe. Really.
II. I was a really terrible person to you. I miss you so much with all my heart. It’s been so long since you’ve left and it breaks my heart that you’re not here. But I’ve been thinking about you a lot recently for some unknown reason. I mean, I probably should think about you a lot more than I have been over these past few years; I’ve grown a lot and I’ve done a lot of maturing since the last time you saw me. But recently I’ve been really blessed and a lot of things have been going my way, even if I play it off like it’s nothing important. Sometimes, I feel like you left us to protect us in ways you couldn’t before and I still feel really blessed that I had you so close to me before.
III. You’re stupid. Or maybe I’m stupid. I don’t know. We’re both probably a little stupid. I feel like you’re hiding from yourself. Or you’re hiding from me. Actually, I feel like you’re just hiding from your own feelings because you’re afraid something will go wrong. But it doesn’t matter. I’m pretty sure you’ll be honest somewhere down the line. I really hope you do, anyway. It’ll be easier on everyone and I don’t see why in this case honesty can be a bad thing. But again, it’s your life, and your choices. I’ll still support and respect you even if I think you made the wrong one. Good luck. And honestly, I’ve missed you lately, and I’ve been meaning to text you, but I’m just too fucking lazy to send you a message.
IV. 我刚刚想到你。我很想你，我最近没看到你。你现在就不见了啊。我要给你发短信，但是我已经知道你非常忙。我要请你去好好儿玩玩，还给你钱，因为你平常请客，所以我很不好意思。因为我知道你忙了，有很多人靠你，我能等。但是别担心，放心吧。我下次请客吧。希望你没问题，加油。
V. Omg. What the fuck is wrong with us ? I don’t understand. We were so close, then something happened, and now we’re on two different planets. I hope you’re not upset with me.
VI. I’m sorry, I really am. My life has gotten so much busier and I know that you guys can see it. Honestly, I’m not trying to avoid you guys. Every day, I wish I had the time to hang out with you guys and bond together again like we used to, but recently it’s just not happening. I was raised to be with my family before anything, I know, but I guess it’s just time to grow a little and become slightly more independent. I’m sorry if it looks like I’m being disrespectful, but I don’t intend it. It’s just the way things have been working out that things can’t be like they should.
